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Wise and ancient sages tell us to live in the moment and to let go of our attachment to the outcome. I’m trying really hard.
The lawyers are finally conversing. The tech creeps do not care that my family is being destroyed, my house readied to be sold. Their world view does not coincide with mine.
I am trying to just let go of it all. In the meantime, I am getting ready to sell my (beautiful) house.
Priced well, I suspect the house will sell fairly quickly.
Which is good. I’ll get to Hawaii (my first stop on #CancerRoadTrip) for some R&R.
Which is sad. Chanel will move to her new home.
It’s a cat loving home. She’ll have a brother and a sister and two humans to manage. It will be better for her.
“Attachment is the great fabricator of illusions; reality can be obtained only by someone who is detached. ”
-Simone Weil
With Hawaii on the horizon, I keep imagining beautiful beaches; farmer’s markets; and a tour of local healing modalities. I imagine a few days just to reflect on things without the encumbrance of possessions, people, or plans. No attachment, to the best of my ability.
I recently picked up Herman Hesse’s book Siddhartha. It’s a story of one man who lives numerous lives in search of belonging and truth. It’s a timeless story that speaks to the human need to connect and to transcend. For the need to find wisdom amidst life’s experiences. I feel that I’ve shared so much of this journey, in my own way. One of my favorite quotes: “I have always believed, and I still believe, that whatever good or bad fortune may come our way we can always give it meaning and transform it into something of value” is true. And that, ultimately, is what #CancerRoadTrip is all about.
What is #CancerRoadTrip and how did it come to be? Read this post to get the backstory!
The thought of moving is one that has been building gradually. It was a series of events two years ago that really got the idea moving, even before the tech creeps made the decision a financial fait accompli.
Two years ago, the hose to my kitchen faucet sprung a leak while I was out of town. From Scottsdale I listened as a restoration team cut open my wood floor to discover mold in the crawl space. Obviously the mold needed to be dealt with. But now the wood floor which covered nearly the entire house would need to be repaired and refinished. The kitchen island needed to be removed (and with it the stunning Italian marble top).
I had to locate wood to replace the floor (an exotic African hardwood. If I couldn’t find some in the US, it would be months before it could be shipped and seasoned for installation). I needed to find a new top for the island, have it fabricated and installed. And in doing so, change the look and feel of the entire room that had been so carefully crafted.
Everything from the kitchen island and side cupboards had to be removed. The island was disassembled. The contents of the cabinets were wrapped in bubble wrap, and packed in boxes that were stacked in the guest room and bath. The boxes covered every inch of the room and the bath, from floor to ceiling. And that wasn’t everything. Pots and the items in the lower cabinets still remained in place.
How much did I have in just one room?
Acquisition is the root of all suffering. -Buddha
While the house was slowly repaired (a 5 week job took 8 months—thank you insurance company), I rented a townhouse in a nearby community. It had a furnished guest room, and functional dining area and kitchen. The master bedroom was locked and reserved for the absentee owner. Two bedrooms upstairs were empty. A small work area was built into the wall next to the walkway that overlooked the downstairs.
The empty bedroom in back faced towards a hill of sage and brush. Some would say it was a plain view. I found it fabulous. It was totally private. I would sit on the floor with Chanel, enjoy the sun, and the view. Chauncy at this point was not well, and climbing the stairs was often difficult for him. I put some of his favorite throws on the borrowed couches downstairs, and let him sleep.
One morning in particular, I recall a scene of such extraordinary beauty, it took my breath away. The sage and grasses that covered the hill gleamed and glistened in the sun, and moved in the stiff winds. It was if I was seeing a different version of reality. Nothing had changed, but the hill was vital and very alive. Was it always so, or was this special angle of light and frost transformative? What limited my vision? Habit, light spectrum, chance?
Living in that little condo, I had almost nothing, yet I had everything I needed. I had my favorite pot, a few plates, the cats. Chanel took to walking the two story ledge overlooking the downstairs, wondering if she could make the jump. Chauncy was getting old and progressively sicker. He started losing weight and simply slept most of the time. I regretted having to move him from his home.
I also regretted that I couldn’t take advantage of the surroundings and walk. By that point my hip had deteriorated (steroids, chemo from the last round of treatment) so badly that I was in constant pain. I could barely get in the car and I couldn’t even walk through Trader Joe’s without my cane and the support of a shopping cart.
I finally moved back into my house (and moved all the furniture from the garage back into the house; unpacked the boxes from the guest room and re-created my kitchen; brought all the items from the condo rental back home). The pain I had to push through was beyond comprehension. The drugs that had alleviated the pain had to be stopped before surgery. My doctor had no idea how I was even able to walk.
In a week, I would be in surgery. I couldn’t wait.
The street to my house climbs a small hill, with a spectacular backdrop of the Sierras. Driving home, I didn’t feel the sense of place that was so important to me. If anything I felt unease, trepidation even. Somewhere in the pit of my stomach, I felt that I had become divorced from my home, from all the energy that had created it and connected me to it. Chauncy was clearly dying; cancer was having its continued impact on my quality of life. Deep in my soul, I knew things were changing.
It took me a year to get back on top of the property, including sorting through all the boxes, moving some things back into the house and giving others away, and restoring the yard and small garden that I had created under such duress just after the first round of chemo. In that year Chauncy–the love of my life– died and, unbeknownst to me, the emotional possibility was truly set for #CancerRoadTrip.
What is #CancerRoadTrip and how did it come to be? Read this post to get the backstory!
My family is of the feline variety.
I was never a cat lover. I actually used to tell dead cat jokes, laughing along the way. Cat in a microwave was, I thought, hysterical.
Then Maggie entered my life. One of the guys at the airfield where I flew in Pennsylvania had rescued her and since my dog had died, it was decided that I should take her home with me.
I remember looking at this kitten in a cardboard carrier on the front seat next to me.
“I’ve never been owned by a cat before, ” I explained.
“I’ve never been owned by a human,” she retorted.
Maggie became Miss Margaret.
Miss M was smart, beautiful and a bit stand offish. She was, after all, a cat.
Fast forward and enter Chauncy.
Chauncy was quite simply THE LOVE of my life. He was once again a rescue cat, and a Himalayan.
Miss Margaret hated Chauncy. I spent the better part of the year sleeping part of the night with her; part with him. Eventually I just found myself wanting to leave the house.
Then one day, Chauncy became weak and he wasn’t able to get up. I rushed him to the vet, hysterical, in tears, and sat with him until they threw me out for the evening. Over the next day or so, he simply recovered. When I brought him home, Miss Margaret decided that maybe he was ok.
Peace finally reigned in my house.
When Miss Margaret died, Chauncy needed a buddy. For a few months, I tried going with just one cat, to see if he would adapt. I went to Napa (Healdsburg) for a weekend and came home to a cat with no voice. He’d been wandering the house crying when no one came to be with him.
Himalayans do not do alone. Ever. At all.
So I went on a quest for a friend for Chauncy. I interviewed endless cats. He was so gentle and loving, and it was his turn to shine. I didn’t want him bullied by a newcomer . So I decided on a Himmie kitten: Chanel.
She prefers to be called Princess Chanel. She is a doll and she adored Chauncy. Everyone adored Chauncy. He was simply one of the most loving souls I’ve ever met, and everyone, everywhere who has ever met him, asks about him. He would jump into my arms when I walked in the door, and expect to be held while he purred his little brains out. Chancy had a 40 minute minimum.
I love all my animals, even some humans, but Chauncy was the love of my life.
Chauncy died this past year. With him gone, I have a fundamental decision to make. I either need to get another cat, or I need to find another home for Chanel. She is bored and lonely, and no amount of human companionship is going to make up for losing Chauncy.
The thought of leaving her brings me to tears. But the tech creeps, the legal bills, the Un-Affordable Care act, and the demise of ThinkTLC (my livelihood!) are all pulling us apart. My family is about to become fractured, separated, ended.
I feel sick simply thinking about it.
I’ve found Chanel a good home, with two humans to manage and two cats to play with. I’m handing her off on March 4th.
What is #CancerRoadTrip and how did it come to be? Read this post to get the backstory!
I am always up for a bit of adventure.
I think it comes from my childhood. I travelled extensively with my parents. I found myself in cities where I didn’t speak the language, sometimes without an adult. (My sister and I once got diverted to Rome when Paris was fogged in. I was 14 or so at the time. I had a great time! My parents, not so much.)
I spent summers in Greece, Yugoslavia and the French Riviera. New Year’s overlooking the Ponte Vecchio. All places Italy. Prague, complete with Russians (I’m dating myself).
At six, I was eating at Taillevent and shopping for grapes at Harrod’s. Christmas in a myriad of other countries and cultures. London with friends. This was my normal.
Travel was comprised of happy times, even when family times were not. So I think it’s natural for me to equate a bit of adventure with happiness. Though sometimes I think I may have taken this adventure theme a bit too far.
After my divorce (many years ago), I found myself lying in bed with pneumonia. My ex had run off with his nurse; the dog had died; I hated my job; I hated where I lived.
But I had learned to fly (another set of adventure stories) and I loved my sailplane. So I decided to take a sabbatical and fly my sailplane across the country. It was a totally outrageous, self absorbed aviation themed adventure. It was a great way to distract myself from the heartbreak of divorce.
The picture to the right is of my “Black Beauty” a stunning (for her time) BMW 535i 5 speed and my sailplane in her custom fitted trailer.
Of course driving with this massive trailer was something else. Backing up still eluded me. (Ask the car I side swiped in Aspen!) But from Pennsylvania through the Midwest; from Boulder and Aspen to Heber and Truckee, I soared, literally and figuratively.
I had my plane in the show at Oshkosh. I flew an ultralight with pontoons and helicoptered over the Badlands. Motor glided in Aspen. Aviation Hog Heaven!
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I hadn’t intended to become a pilot but soaring captured my soul immediately.
It started when I took a chance glider ride in Calistoga, CA. I returned home to Pennsylvania where I learned about a group of World War II era pilots that flew every weekend. I invited myself out over Labor Day of 1991, and that was it. I flew for three straight days and I was hooked.
From there I soloed; flew a 1-26 and then decided to fly with a club further south. They owned their own airport. To fly with them, I needed my own plane. And I needed a sleek fiberglass ship. So I bought this incredible plane, and I had no idea how to fly it– yet. (Another series of stories).
Most people are unaware of this amazing sport. Here’s a glimpse of soaring through one video. It’s all this and so much more:
Barron Hilton, pilot, soaring enthusiast and son of Conrad Hilton founder of Hilton Hotels, once sponsored an international competition that culminated in a week of flying from his ranch in northern Nevada, described soaring as follows:
For thousands of years, man could only dream of soaring like an eagle, gliding effortlessly with the wind…Through a careful blend of high-tech aircraft design and instinctive pilot skill, man is able to capture the sensation known only to the birds of the hair. Managing invisible updrafts of air to gain altitude. Gliding at high speed in a gradual descent for hundreds of miles. All in a plane without an engine. A craft fueled only by the mind of the pilot.
A craft fueled only by the mind of the pilot.
Soaring, for many years, was my heart and my soul. It’s an aerial metaphor for life. What goes up, comes down. Speed up in sinking air; slow down in lift.
Each flight is entered into your logbook where you are “Pilot In Command”. I was totally alive in the air.
As in life, control can be an illusion. In the sky, human skill, preparation and ability meet the sky gods of weather and chance. It’s an incredible dance! Rising up to cloud base, screaming across the desert landscape, following the mountain spines for lift and navigation. I always think of the song “Superman” and the lyrics:
I can’t stand to fly
I’m not that naive
Men weren’t meant to ride
With clouds between their knees
Except that I did.
Ride with clouds between my knees.
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This trip I am about to take this time, #CancerRoadTrip, is without Whiskey Oscar. She now lives in Hemet, with an aviation aficionado that gives her the love she deserves.
This trip, will be by commercial plane and car. And whatever else comes along. Undoubtedly more mundane than riding with the clouds between my knees. Unless of course I get to New Zealand. Because then I will soar Mt. Cook.
First stop: Hawaii. I need to get my health back and keep my cancer at bay. I have to figure out my life again, with my 60th birthday rapidly approaching and uncertainty on every level stretching before me.
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How does one deconstruct an affluent suburban life?
Living near Tahoe, I have all the equipment for a myriad of sports. Skis for powder, skis for downhill, skis for cross country. Boots and poles. Snow shoes, tennis racquets (I played USTA for years), pickle ball paraphernalia. Kayaks, paddles, vests and clothes. Golf stuff. Road bikes, mountain bikes. Aviation stuff-a parachute, oxygen masks, tools and rolls of white tape (the seams where the wings met the fuselage and the tail assembled were taped for a seamless, efficient flying surface).
Getting the house ready to sell has been a huge endeavor. I’ve lived here for 18 years. This was my “first house” after my divorce and I poured myself into it. It is beautiful. It is perfect. Right now in the middle of winter it offers the warm sustenance, of things, memories and habits. I want to wrap myself in it’s very being, and celebrate all that has brought me here.
And mourn it too.
It is a thing. I know that. But it’s a thing with memories and decades of care. The walls in the library are covered in old maps in homage to my travels and curiosity about the world. It’s an east coast habit of collection that followed me when I moved out west.
Initially I was interested in continental evolution prior to 1800. When you move out west, you realize that a lot of history starts at 1800! So my interests expanded.
From 1609 and John Smith to the Fremont trips that defined the West, my walls tell a story of exploration. Of adventure. I see the continent unfolding through the history and cartography of the times, just as my life unfolds through the decades I experience. Somehow I feel deeply connected to all these old maps and their stories.
When I was a child one Christmas in Rome, one of my gifts was a set of blocks. On each side of the block was a partial map of a continent. If you arranged the blocks properly, you built the continent. I used to speed build continents for fun.
One of my favorite maps chronicles John Law’s expedition to the New World:
The map (to the right) shows the goddess of plenty in the lower right hand corner. To the left, affluent investors are counting their riches. Below the cherubs cut up the worthless stock certificates. And to the right, the everyday men that lost their life savings in John’s Laws schemes are shown killing themselves in despair.
I love this map because while time moves on, the greed, dishonesty and the carnage initiated and inflicted by man, never changes.
“The winding path to peace is always a worthy one regardless of how many turns it takes.”
The twists and turns of life recently have left me exhausted. I’m out of shape which makes managing everything just that bit more difficult.
I’m out of shape because the last round of chemo (and steroids) destroyed my right hip. After a not so successful hip replacement surgery nearly two years ago (I am often in daily pain), I can no longer play tennis or ski. I joke that the back of my car used to haul skis and parachutes (seriously) and other adventure paraphernalia. Now I have a yoga mat and walking sticks.
I need a vacation.
I haven’t had a real vacation since well before cancer invaded my life in 2009. I’m over due for a little R&R, some serious rest and recuperation, some fun. If I’m unencumbered by a house, possessions and family, possibilities open up.
But do I want to be #HomelessWithCancer? To put my beloved cat–my family!– in another home?
I may have no choice.
I am devastated on many levels; that’s obvious. The actions of the tech creeps have radically changed my life trajectory. But I do have a choice in how I respond to these events. Where is the opportunity in this twist of fate? Where is the upside? I have to believe that things happen for a reason and our response dictates where we go. Do we choose a path with higher energy or do we let ourselves be drawn into negative energy, situations and people?
Outwardly I know I look so together. Always sure, in control. Brave.
Inside, I wonder…
Does anyone get the pain of cancer?
Of betrayal and all its implications?
The pain of uncertainty?
The pain of loss on so many levels!
Loss of health.
Loss of perceived control and certainty.
Loss of property.
Loss of family.
Loss of energy.
Loss of future.
Loss of livelihood.
Hello!!!
Is anyone out there????
But the better question is who’s in here.
Because this person inside of me, I know, will find a way through all of this, to peace, to stillness. To the things that matter. Over the years I’ve learned that I have it in me to overcome nearly anything, and to find a positive path through most situations.
Namaste is a phrase from yoga. In Hinduism it means “I bow to the divine in you”.
Namaste to me.
Some Inspirational Reading For Tough Times:
From Amazon:
From covering the front lines of the Gulf War to investigating Colombian drug lords to living with freedom fighters in the mountains of Afghanistan, war correspondent Brad Willis was accustomed to risk. But when mortal danger came, it was from an unexpected direction.
At the pinnacle of his career, a broken back and failed surgery left Willis permanently disabled and condemned to life in a body brace. Then came a diagnosis of terminal, stage IV throat cancer.
At his 50th birthday party, friends gathered around Willis, who was crippled, almost mute, depressed, strung out on narcotic medications, and dying. Halfway through the celebration Willis realized the party’s true purpose—his friends were there to say goodbye.
Everyone knew Willis was on his way out…everyone except his 2-year-old son, who urged, “Get up, Daddy!”
His son’s words ringing in his ears, Willis chose to abandon Western medicine and embrace the most esoteric practices of Yoga to heal his body, mind, and soul—ridding himself of cancer and fully restoring his back. As a symbol of his journey, he took the spiritual name Bhava Ram, which stands for “Living from the Heart.”
Warrior Pose is an adventure chronicling some of the most momentous events of our time through a journalist’s eyes, an unforgettable story about the power of love between father and son, and a transformational journey of self-healing, inner peace, and wholeness.
From Amazon:
In his last book, ‘Get To Know: Unlocking the Essence in You’, Charles gives insight to the man he was before going through his battle with Stage IV Hodgkins Lymphoma and the man he became once on the other side. ‘Choose Your Path’ was written during the last three to four years of being in remission and is literally being published two weeks after Charles received the news that the cancer has returned. Making this title so much more compelling as Charles will once again try to grow from a life threatening challenge. During the years of medically and mentally being cancer free, Charles has climbed mountains, ran with the bulls and gotten engaged. Substantial changes in his mindset, actions and desires have taken place and Charles lays his private thoughts out for the world to see how he ended up on the path that he walks today. A path that no man has walked on before and one that no man will walk again. Charles intentionally looks for the path least taken simply to be able to share an experience and inspire someone to do the same. ‘Choose Your Path’, reminds us that all humans were born with a purpose. That feeling inside that keeps you awake at night should be acknowledge and if reasonable pursued. ‘Choose Your Path’ also reminds us to love ourselves and that trying to be the best that we can be is never a bad mission. This book serves as voice for a generation who realizes that humanity needs a philosophy of love and encouragement in order to sustain and grow. Without it the ideology of every man for himself will spread. History has told that story many times before, try this one. ‘Choose Your Path’ 2015.
From Amazon:
Diagnosed with a late-stage cancer, after years of bungled and inadequate medical attention…and then to discover that the best-practice chemotherapy is not available in your province.
After her delayed diagnosis of colorectal cancer, Robin McGee reaches out to her community using a blog entitled “Robin’s Cancer Olympics.” Often uplifting and humourous, the blog posts and responses follow her into the harsh landscape of cancer treatment, medical regulation, and provincial politics. If she and her supporters are to be successful in lobbying the government for the chemotherapy, she must overcome many formidable and frightening hurdles. And time is running out. . .
A true story, The Cancer Olympics is a suspenseful and poignant treatment of an unthinkable situation, an account of advocacy and survival that explores our deepest values regarding democracy, medicine, and friendship.
Half of the proceeds from the sale of this book go to the Canadian Cancer Society and the Colorectal Cancer Association of Canada.
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ThinkTLC (as in Think: Tender Loving Care) was a technology platform–an app, if you will–that was always meant to be the final piece of Anti-Cancer Club. It modeled and rewarded compassion behavior towards people with long term illnesses and it grew out of my own cancer experience.
Cancer is tough in many ways. For me, the social isolation that ensued was particularly difficult.
No one knew what to do or say.
One day, I was playing tennis indoors with my tennis group. That’s four indoor courts, or 16 people (this group played social doubles). I was going through chemo, and everyone knew about it.
But no one knew how to handle it.
We changed courts after each set, winners moving on. I wasn’t winning much at that time, but I was grateful to just be there.
After the first set, people gathered their tennis paraphernalia and prepared to change courts. One woman came up to me and put her hand out as if to touch me, but her hand never connected. It hovered near my arm, as if held back by a forcefield. It was as if she wanted to reach out, to touch me and say so much, but there was this profound disconnect of emotion, words and perhaps proprietary. Everyone was silent.
Then the spell was broken, the players switched courts, and tennis went on.
On the way out of the club, Sandy said to me “You have so many friends here, you know.” But I didn’t know. A few people gave me rides to chemo, but by and large, people were silent.
I ran into another tennis friend, a pediatric cardiologist who lives up the street, at Trader Joe’s one day. “I think about you every time I drive by your house,” she said. But she never called or emailed or texted.
Small kindnesses did happen. One friend cooked for me and coaxed me to eat when the chemo had totally destroyed any sense of appetite. Others gave rides. But overall, cancer was a very isolating experience for me. And I realized, it probably was for others as well. My boyfriend du jour, a very nice fellow, lacked the emotional depth to understand my experience. Rather than sit with me in chemo, he went to a nearby wine bar and said to call him when I needed a ride.
Needless to say, we parted ways not too long afterwards. He’s a good person, now married to his soul mate so it all worked out. For me, cancer had opened an emotional out pouring of pain, need and life from somewhere deep in my soul and I could not close it off. I needed to share it. I needed to connect with others that “got it”.
I’ve also felt the helplessness that results when a friend has cancer. Maggie, a friend from college, was living on St. Helena, an island off the coast of Africa where Napoleon had been exiled. Her husband, Paul, had taken on a job commitment for the country’s treasury, necessitating a stay of a few years to implement all the reforms.
One day Paul-an avid runner- doubled over in pain. At that time, there was no airport on the island. Supplies arrived every few weeks by ship. He was airlifted via military helicopter to Africa and then down to South Africa, where he was diagnosed with very advanced colon cancer. He was started on chemo immediately.
Meanwhile, back on the island, Maggie was frantic, packing up the house, trying to get to Paul. When she finally arrived in South Africa, they flew home to Australia. The call went out to their family, which was spread worldwide. Paul died some months after.
During that period, I felt stymied. How did I show I cared, that they were constantly on my mind, as they trod through cancer hell? In all honesty, I hadn’t been the best friend. Maggie was the one that always kept in touch through annual Christmas updates. I wasn’t a close family member, but I certainly wanted to show my care and support.
Over the next year or so, I designed a platform-ThinkTLC- that solved these issues. The tech creeps were to translate my vision into code.
That is an overview of ThinkTLC and ThinkTLC is important to this story. I structured the business as a social entrepreneurship company. My goal was to give back; to provide flexible employment especially for people going through cancer and other ongoing disabilities; and hopefully to spare others the intense isolation that I experienced year after year, dealing with cancer and its effect on my health and my life. And to make a living, and generate the money to cover the costs of growing and evolving Anti-Cancer Club.
I had looked forward to traveling with ThinkTLC and hopefully touching others when they most needed it. But my ability to keep funding everything was running out and I needed that platform finished on time.
Cancer is full of betrayals, big and small. Your body betrays you, your friends may fall away, your finances may fall apart.
In addition to all of the above, for me, there was also business betrayal. Which is what has led to #CancerRoadTrip.
I aligned with a technology/IP group to bring to life a revolutionary platform that models and rewards compassionate behavior. I created it, designed it and named it ThinkTLC (as in Think: Tender, Loving, Care). Think of it as Facebook for good. No sales of your data; just an ongoing flow of compassion to people when they most need it. I always envisioned it as this flow of energy around the globe that connected, touched and even healed people in need.
ThinkTLC was also a social entrepreneurship company that gave back. And it had ramifications far beyond cancer. Cancer was simply the starting point for spreading some care and compassion in the world.
But the tech creeps, as I shall anonymously call them, have refused (for months now) to respond to any emails or calls. I should have had a beta platform; instead I have nothing. As of this writing, they have refused to communicate. It would appear that they have simply stolen everything I’ve worked for over the last several years of life with cancer. Everything I’ve funded with my savings. This year I generated nearly 20 million impressions on Twitter. All this was built to help launch ThinkTLC. To help bring a bit of kindness to the world.
I finally hired a legal firm to get some answers. I am told that pursuing legal action will cost at least half a million dollars and three years of my life, with no guaranteed outcome. In addition to no product from the tech creeps, I now have a semi-gag order from my attorney.
I was counting on ThinkTLC launching this past fall and to start paying for Anti-Cancer Club (which I’ve personally funded to date) and a million other expenses, like health insurance! I spend a minimum $15,000 per year (Affordable Care Act????) just on premiums and in-network deductibles. Going out of network increases this amount to over $20,000. And that doesn’t include the rehab I need for my hip; acupuncture for pain and well being; or even an occasional massage which would be so comforting.
I can no longer fund all this and live off my savings.
Without ThinkTLC up and operating, I am going to have to sell my house.
My beautiful house. And where will I go? How am I supposed to deal with being #HomelessWithCancer? What about my beloved cat, Chanel? Where will she go? Will she be alright?
Will I be alright?
You would think someone on the board of a publicly traded company (one of the tech creeps) and his associates would have better things to do than make someone #HomelessWithCancer.
But thanks to them, that’s about to be my new status. So it’s time for a bit of R&R.
Time for a #CancerRoadTrip. Because when the going gets tough, the tough go traveling.
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months before it could be shipped and seasoned for installation). I needed to find a new top for the island, have it fabricated and installed. And in doing so, change the look and feel of the entire room that had been so carefully crafted.
fabulous. It was totally private. I would sit on the floor with Chanel, enjoy the sun, and the view. Chauncy at this point was not well, and climbing the stairs was often difficult for him. I put some of his favorite throws on the borrowed couches downstairs, and let him sleep.
cats. Chanel took to walking the two story ledge overlooking the downstairs, wondering if she could make the jump. Chauncy was getting old and progressively sicker. He started losing weight and simply slept most of the time. I regretted having to move him from his home.
Then Maggie entered my life. One of the guys 
would adapt. I went to Napa (Healdsburg) for a weekend and came home to a cat with no voice. He’d been wandering the house crying when no one came to be with him.
aviation aficionado that gives her the love she deserves.
Living near Tahoe, I have all the equipment for a myriad of sports. Skis for powder, skis for downhill, skis for cross country. Boots and poles. Snow shoes, tennis racquets (I played USTA for years), pickle ball paraphernalia. Kayaks, paddles, vests and clothes. Golf stuff. Road bikes, mountain bikes. Aviation stuff-a parachute, oxygen masks, tools and rolls of white tape (the seams where the wings met the fuselage and the tail assembled were taped for a seamless, efficient flying surface).
The map (to the right) shows the goddess of plenty in the lower right hand corner. To the left, affluent investors are counting their riches. Below the cherubs cut up the worthless stock certificates. And to the right, the everyday men that lost their life savings in John’s Laws schemes are shown killing themselves in despair.
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